Baby...I just watched your VH1 special...you had tried to commit suicide...sweety, God is with you ALWAYS...don't give up like that. God will see you through ANYTHING!!!! I went back and watched your winning night on American Idol and I cried...again...You mean so much to people you don't even know. The almighty Lord has helped me through drug addiction and alocoholism and has opened doors I never thought existed. Hang in there girl...we love you!!!